Look at my eyes! These allergies are crazy! The pollen is thick. The air is humid. I spend half of my day making pig noises trying to scratch my throat. Anyway, I haven’t been posting lately because I’ve been kind of exhausted from this new job with FedEx. I have to figure out my energy level and how to balance life now that I’m back in the workforce. God is so patient with me. He told me to just chill out and let my body and mind get used to this new venture, because I’m doing other things on the side as well that I want to be successful. So, right now I just need to focus on this job adjustment and my other projects will be there. I have to learn to create time to rest too, because I’m on 1000. I just want to keep going and going, and today my body was like REST. I didn’t even go to church. I feel empty about it, but I know God isn’t going to hold it against me. Anyway, I work as a driver and it is super easy and kind of a lot of work. I don’t mind working, but you sometimes find people who are lazy and complain about work. I’m not lazy at all. I’m more impatient and ready to get the job done. I’m going to go to a meeting at either 6PM or 8PM since I didn’t get a chance to make it to any last week. I’ve been working from 7am until all week, through Saturday. I see some people complaining and I feel so fortunate to be where I am compared to where I was at the end of last year and the beginning of this year that I just sometimes have to walk away from the conversation. I don’t want any negative energy rubbing off on me. The guy I was training with noticed that I didn’t curse. I didn’t give it any thought because in my mind I’m cursing all the time, but that gave me an epiphany that people are really watching and the words that come out of my mouth mean something. Also, the words that don’t come out of my mouth mean something. I mean I do swear every now and then, but I guess I’ve learned to tame my tongue. I don’t want to speak curses on anything. Only healing. It’s a tornado watch out right now. I feel like there’s going to be a lot of bad weather in the upcoming months. Specifically tornadoes. I’ve said that in a post earlier. Also, what’s in your heart proceeds to become thoughts which then come out of your mouth. I wonder if your dreams tell you what’s in your heart? I had a dream that a certain person took of my beloved packets of grape Kool Aid and made his own pitcher of it. I was so irate in the dream and when i woke up I wondered why was I so irate? It was like a real feeling that I harbor but I don’t know where it comes from. I don’t even know what the feeling is, but I know it’s there in my heart because I felt it. Perhaps it’s selfishness. 🤔 . Anyway, that’s all I got. Don’t know how I got off on that last tangent, but it is what it is. Thanks for letting me share.
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